absolutum dominium

[mush alert]

this morning before school, i had this strange memory flashback as i browsed through my phone, wondering if i should call him to wake him up. it was of the time when we were back in vancouver, close to the exams.

i believe it was a day or two before my last paper. i'd developed the habit of knocking on his window to wake him up in the middle of the day closer to evening for dinner, seeing that he would study all through the night and crash in the morning.

i was walking back from staples towards totem. it was a beautiful day, all bright and cool and sunny. i believe i was still wearing my thick jacket.

from the outside, i peered through the window of fairview into his room. he was deep asleep, wearing only his shorts.

i knocked on his window, but he didn't wake up. in fact, my knocking had to get progressively louder, almost to the point where it was a mad banging tt got me stares from passers-by.

and then, he shot up from slumber, a look of shock in his glazed wide-open eyes, as he searched for the source of the knocking. and then as he saw me, this amazing wide grin, a grin tt i can only describe as immensely spastic and happy all at the same time; he with his puppy dog eyes and his wild messed-up hair, and tt almost psychotic grin...

he didn't even have to tell me tt he was happy to see me. it was written all over his face, even before he jumped up from his bed and bounded towards the window.

and tt memory is one of those tt just stay with me. because i cannot forget how happy i actually felt at tt time. come to think of it, i had never been as instanteously happy as i had been then.

spastic happy. i haven't seen tt mad, wild-eyed look for a while, although he has come close to doing it. i do miss it, of course. but i no longer need signals tt he is happy to see me.