Sunday, March 05, 2006
emotions are a tricky thing. sometimes you think tt you can do something so long as you set your mind to it, only to fuck up coz your emotions refused to obey your rationale. happiness is a state of mind, but it's difficult to achieve that state of mind when you refuse to let all the other stuff go. sometimes i wonder what makes people click? i'm terrible with large groups of people because i can't seem to gel. is it a meeting of the minds? is it common interests and common objectives?
we were all there for one reason, and tt was what brought us together. but beyond tt, how to you talk to other people? how is it tt you can talk to some but not others? why is there this great divide between separate small groups? is it familiarity or the lack thereof? the differences in wavelength? a self-imposed sense of elitism and exclusivity tt excludes others?
i am not happy. and tt bothers me. if i can tell others tt happiness is all in the attitude, i shld live by what i preach, now shouldn't i? what else would give me tt mandate to say so? i think i'm taking life too seriously, trying to do too much in too little time, having too great expectations when they shouldn't even be there, beating myself up again over the smallest of things like my absence of exercise and activity.
take a chill pill. tt's what melissa tells me. ask for a chill pill, take it with a glass of water, and go to sleep.
haha. if there was a chill pill like tt, i would buy the whole damn store.
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we were all there for one reason, and tt was what brought us together. but beyond tt, how to you talk to other people? how is it tt you can talk to some but not others? why is there this great divide between separate small groups? is it familiarity or the lack thereof? the differences in wavelength? a self-imposed sense of elitism and exclusivity tt excludes others?
i am not happy. and tt bothers me. if i can tell others tt happiness is all in the attitude, i shld live by what i preach, now shouldn't i? what else would give me tt mandate to say so? i think i'm taking life too seriously, trying to do too much in too little time, having too great expectations when they shouldn't even be there, beating myself up again over the smallest of things like my absence of exercise and activity.
take a chill pill. tt's what melissa tells me. ask for a chill pill, take it with a glass of water, and go to sleep.
haha. if there was a chill pill like tt, i would buy the whole damn store.
# posted by Kitana @ 3/05/2006 12:54:00 AM 
