Thursday, June 29, 2006
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goddamn fuck off already.
i have had it to high blue fucking heaven with the goddamn threats and the goddamn emotional blackmails and if we have a fucking communication problem come the fuck out and say it, and not just hint around the fucking bush and expect me to get all your goddamn nuances. i am not god and i am not all-seeing and all-knowing and i don't get fuck unless you goddamn tell me. and then after tt come right around again for the god knows how manyeth fucking time and tell me tt i have no fucking conscience. if i had no fucking conscience i wouldn't even be here. fuck, i would be so far away tt you'd never fucking see me again. i haven't got the fucking mind or heart to try anymore. i don't see the point. no matter what i do, it's dead end wall here and there coz you guys don't get fuck, and i know difficult parents when i see them, but difficult is too much of an understatement. so what if you guys supposedly love me? somehow i don't seem to see any of tt coming through. all tt you ever make me is upset, angry, disappointed, and goddamn fucking guilty... oh yeah tt is all you seem to dish a lot of tt out in generous amounts. what love? what care and concern? fuck tt it's all just empty words and empty lies.
fine, fuck it. 21 august and i'm fucking out of here. fuck you all.
now playing: hotel costes - cafe de flor
i have had it to high blue fucking heaven with the goddamn threats and the goddamn emotional blackmails and if we have a fucking communication problem come the fuck out and say it, and not just hint around the fucking bush and expect me to get all your goddamn nuances. i am not god and i am not all-seeing and all-knowing and i don't get fuck unless you goddamn tell me. and then after tt come right around again for the god knows how manyeth fucking time and tell me tt i have no fucking conscience. if i had no fucking conscience i wouldn't even be here. fuck, i would be so far away tt you'd never fucking see me again. i haven't got the fucking mind or heart to try anymore. i don't see the point. no matter what i do, it's dead end wall here and there coz you guys don't get fuck, and i know difficult parents when i see them, but difficult is too much of an understatement. so what if you guys supposedly love me? somehow i don't seem to see any of tt coming through. all tt you ever make me is upset, angry, disappointed, and goddamn fucking guilty... oh yeah tt is all you seem to dish a lot of tt out in generous amounts. what love? what care and concern? fuck tt it's all just empty words and empty lies.
fine, fuck it. 21 august and i'm fucking out of here. fuck you all.
# posted by Kitana @ 6/29/2006 10:10:00 AM 
