Wednesday, May 18, 2005
random observations
the rain is spoiling all my running plans. kanina. how am i going to practise if i can't even leave my house??? ARGH.
just a few random observations, as the title clearly says...
1. there are these taitais hang around centrepoint to do their shopping. but when they do so they bring along their little toddlers and their maids. the thing is, these taitais tend to leave their children and their maids at some spot at mcdonalds or delifrance or something, and then leave to do their own shopping or buy their own food and enjoy their own meal while the poor maid struggles to take care of the kids. and what the maid gets in return: 1 measly cheeseburger. oh for goodness sake at least get the DOUBLE cheeseburger! it only costs $1.95 and it won't kill you to show a little appreciation to your maid, esp when SHE is doing what YOU are supposed to be doing.
2. i realise tt after looking at dragonboaters and canoeists for the past 2 years of my life (without their shirts on at sdba), my standards for topless guys is impossibly high. once i see paleness, or belly fat (and oh, underneath those baggy shirts, more guys have belly fat than we think), i get suitably unimpressed. *sigh* HOW, like this???
3. fuck image standards. i hate it tt women are kept to this impossibly high standard of thinness for what defines beauty by societal norms. it's not enough to be healthy, we have to be fucking stick thin. you see it on your tvs, in your beauty magazines; models with stick-thin bods with 'to die for' captions underneath their heavily-mascara-ed faces. how many of us have succumbed to the pressures to lose weight, even to the point of poor health? how many of us constantly suffer from low self-esteem? i know when it comes to my weight, i do. how many of us have fallen victim to eating disorders already? to fad diets? to slimming centres? i used to think i was strong, but when it comes to my body i know i'm not. i succumb, i fall victim to. i get stuck in a rut i can't get out of, fall into habits i can never seem to completely break. i'm addicted, and tho not to beer or cigarettes, i know my addiction destroys me, yet unlike the emotional addictions that i can usually tear away from, this is one habit i just can't seem to break.
i'm very upset with myself over this. among other things.
but it's not fair. women don't hold guys to such high standards. even tho muscles turn me on (there i admit it), i don't need rock-hard abs or huge pecs or bulging biceps or whatever. to me it's really character, sense of humour, charisma, charm tt win me over. but it seems to me tt to guys, they want their girlfriends to have hot bods. to be thin, to have slim arms and thighs and teeny-tiny waists, and better yet to be big-breasted. of course, i can't fulfil this criteria at all, which is probably why i'm complaining.
even then, it's not just guys who are harder on girls. let's face it. girls are harder on girls too. girls being natural bitches, girls just love to pick on someone who's "ohmygawd she's so fucking fat and she's squeezing her million pound flesh into a pair of teeny tiny minis!", or someone whose tummy is bulging or has arms like a man or whatever. i don't know why we do it. why there's this compulsive need to pick on other people for not being the right body type. no wait, actually i do. it's called jealousy, competition, and the naturally self-centred female psyche.
maybe you can say tt i'm not strong enough. tt i allow society to dictate my thoughts and actions, tt i should just not care. i wish. coz i've tried time and again, and no matter what i say my own actions betray me. what can i do about tt? of course, i won't succumb to fad diets or whatever to conform to society's expectations because no matter what, my race will always come before everything else. but i do wish to start something somewhere.
btw, i realise i STILL haven't accomplished any of what i said i wanted to this hol. i better start NOW.
4. BTW, WHO WANTS TO WATCH BREAK! AN URBAN FUNK SPECTACULAR??? it's fri 27 may 8 pm @ the singapore indoor stadium. from now to 26 may tickets are $35+$2 sistic charge. I WANT TO WATCH!!! but i need khakis who are similarly interested in dance...
5. Lastly... from the Jitterbugs homepage...
OL SKOOL HIP HOP WITH CAST MEMBERs OF "BREAK!"
Tue 24 May 2005, 8 to 9:30 pm
2 cast members of "Break!" are coming to the Jitterbug Swingapore studio to share their moves and grooves. Sign up now for this 1.5 hr workshop on Ol Skool Hip Hop and learn from New York's finest urban artistes. Don't miss this opportunity as places are limited. Register now!
Closing date for registration is Sat 21 May 2005.
Fee: $20 (Members) / $25 (Non-Members)
HMM... SHOULD I???
now playing: hotel costes - cafe de flor
just a few random observations, as the title clearly says...
1. there are these taitais hang around centrepoint to do their shopping. but when they do so they bring along their little toddlers and their maids. the thing is, these taitais tend to leave their children and their maids at some spot at mcdonalds or delifrance or something, and then leave to do their own shopping or buy their own food and enjoy their own meal while the poor maid struggles to take care of the kids. and what the maid gets in return: 1 measly cheeseburger. oh for goodness sake at least get the DOUBLE cheeseburger! it only costs $1.95 and it won't kill you to show a little appreciation to your maid, esp when SHE is doing what YOU are supposed to be doing.
2. i realise tt after looking at dragonboaters and canoeists for the past 2 years of my life (without their shirts on at sdba), my standards for topless guys is impossibly high. once i see paleness, or belly fat (and oh, underneath those baggy shirts, more guys have belly fat than we think), i get suitably unimpressed. *sigh* HOW, like this???
3. fuck image standards. i hate it tt women are kept to this impossibly high standard of thinness for what defines beauty by societal norms. it's not enough to be healthy, we have to be fucking stick thin. you see it on your tvs, in your beauty magazines; models with stick-thin bods with 'to die for' captions underneath their heavily-mascara-ed faces. how many of us have succumbed to the pressures to lose weight, even to the point of poor health? how many of us constantly suffer from low self-esteem? i know when it comes to my weight, i do. how many of us have fallen victim to eating disorders already? to fad diets? to slimming centres? i used to think i was strong, but when it comes to my body i know i'm not. i succumb, i fall victim to. i get stuck in a rut i can't get out of, fall into habits i can never seem to completely break. i'm addicted, and tho not to beer or cigarettes, i know my addiction destroys me, yet unlike the emotional addictions that i can usually tear away from, this is one habit i just can't seem to break.
i'm very upset with myself over this. among other things.
but it's not fair. women don't hold guys to such high standards. even tho muscles turn me on (there i admit it), i don't need rock-hard abs or huge pecs or bulging biceps or whatever. to me it's really character, sense of humour, charisma, charm tt win me over. but it seems to me tt to guys, they want their girlfriends to have hot bods. to be thin, to have slim arms and thighs and teeny-tiny waists, and better yet to be big-breasted. of course, i can't fulfil this criteria at all, which is probably why i'm complaining.
even then, it's not just guys who are harder on girls. let's face it. girls are harder on girls too. girls being natural bitches, girls just love to pick on someone who's "ohmygawd she's so fucking fat and she's squeezing her million pound flesh into a pair of teeny tiny minis!", or someone whose tummy is bulging or has arms like a man or whatever. i don't know why we do it. why there's this compulsive need to pick on other people for not being the right body type. no wait, actually i do. it's called jealousy, competition, and the naturally self-centred female psyche.
maybe you can say tt i'm not strong enough. tt i allow society to dictate my thoughts and actions, tt i should just not care. i wish. coz i've tried time and again, and no matter what i say my own actions betray me. what can i do about tt? of course, i won't succumb to fad diets or whatever to conform to society's expectations because no matter what, my race will always come before everything else. but i do wish to start something somewhere.
btw, i realise i STILL haven't accomplished any of what i said i wanted to this hol. i better start NOW.
4. BTW, WHO WANTS TO WATCH BREAK! AN URBAN FUNK SPECTACULAR??? it's fri 27 may 8 pm @ the singapore indoor stadium. from now to 26 may tickets are $35+$2 sistic charge. I WANT TO WATCH!!! but i need khakis who are similarly interested in dance...
5. Lastly... from the Jitterbugs homepage...
OL SKOOL HIP HOP WITH CAST MEMBERs OF "BREAK!"
Tue 24 May 2005, 8 to 9:30 pm
2 cast members of "Break!" are coming to the Jitterbug Swingapore studio to share their moves and grooves. Sign up now for this 1.5 hr workshop on Ol Skool Hip Hop and learn from New York's finest urban artistes. Don't miss this opportunity as places are limited. Register now!
Closing date for registration is Sat 21 May 2005.
Fee: $20 (Members) / $25 (Non-Members)
HMM... SHOULD I???
# posted by Kitana @ 5/18/2005 08:07:00 PM 
