absolutum dominium

fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

guess what? my HP laptop died on me.

fuck HP to high blue bloody heaven!!!

never ever get a HP laptop! it sucks to the CORE.

now i don't know if i can get the damn thing repaired because i don't have an international warranty and i don't know where the FUCK to go.

and i'm not even going to whine about all my FILES tt i have lost. my PICTURES. my DRAGONBOAT pictures. my MUSIC - all 4 gb of it. and my UNSAVED WORK for my 2 30 page papers!!!

*tears hair out in absolute fury*

and i NEED the goddamn laptop coz it's my only connection to him and to everyone else right now... i feel so alone without it otherwise...

fuck you HP! FUCK YOU!!!

dying 4 times last sem not enough (esp JUST before my exams) you have to DIE on me NOW?!?!?!?!

ARGH!!!

sigh.

anyway thanks to adrian who let me use his laptop to check my email, reply my email and um. rant and rave.

ugh.

BTW. there was a period of non-fog today so i finally went for my first run in 3 weeks. it was really really cold though - 5 degrees celcius. i wasn't wearing warm enough, which made it worse. and i started out too fast; within 5 min my lungs were BURNING with every breath i took because the air was too cold and my lungs weren't warming them enough...

but it was a good run nonetheless. i felt free. and i loved the mist of my breath in front of my face. all the songs tt i hear are the songs tt reminded me of him... but when i turned the corner at w 16th avenue jason wade was on the line: "...everything will be all right..."

and i saw the sun...

cheesy i know. but at tt moment you just know, tt everything will be ok.

somehow.

now.

about my fucking laptop... or lack thereof...