absolutum dominium

it seems to be my escape from reality.

i concussed at 10.30pm last night. woke up at 8.30am this morning. imagine tt. 10.30pm. tt's unprecedented. i have NEVER slept at 10.30pm since primary school, at least. and even with the floormates below me pounding on their bass speakers for their usual sat late-night parties... i don't know why i just crashed.

woke up this morning to a nice breakfast of bagels with cream cheese.

but the rest of my day wasn't fantastic, and those who've asked will know why. so i sent an email and got a reply later. and then i just couldn't concentrate for the rest of the day. couldn't do a damn thing. opened up my document to finish my paper, but the thoughts just wouldn't flow. wouldn't come. i couldn't lose myself in work today.

it was sunny outside. i wondered if i should go for a run. it was one of those rare and sunny days.

in the end i burrowed myself back into my bed and slept some more.

i don't know why i'm so tired or just too lazy for my own damn good.

funny how he says tt sleep is his escape from reality.

coz it feels like mine too. i had a really good dream last night. good, but v strange. involved someone from my past whom i thought i would have forgotten by now. i wonder why he popped up again.

but yeah. it was dark outside when i woke up.

had tomato-cream pasta with chicken, and ice-cream for dinner.

i need to finish my paper asap now.

btw. thanks to everyone who asked how i was, and for the girls who listened and gave very valuable advice and stuck with me even though i'm 12 000 miles away and i am just so lost. i really really needed your support.

i used to think tt i was a voice of reason. now tt i'm in this position, i wonder where my reason has escaped to.