absolutum dominium

sometimes you wonder what constitutes strength of character? everyone being different, has different perceptions of what is characterial strength. people who know me know tt i despise human frailty, and while my own arrogance is nothing to be proud of, it is nothing tt i change. but i admire human strength. not physical how-many-pull-ups-can-i-do kind of strength, but resilience, tenacity, tolerance... the kind of qualities tt make you believe in such a thing as "the human spirit".

i was reading a blog entry, and while many people have different ways of defining strength, i believe tt the coping of loss is one such definition. and sometimes i don't know how you can have tt kind of strength to deal with the non-existence of someone so dear and so beloved, and still live life. there are so many cliches about death and acceptance and in healing, all in the natural circle of life, but yet to live, to not be bogged down by depression or to be unable to pull through such loss, to live a life tt brings honour to the memory, tt is truly admirable.

some people say tt emotional instability is a sign of immaturity, others say tt child-like behaviour is a sign of immaturity. yet, i bet to differ under certain circumstances. not when i see tt determination to keep living, to keep loving, to keep on with life and yet not deny or forget; tt kind of blameless acceptance, tt kind of resilience, tt kind of spirit.

i think people who endanger their bodies, minds or lives over what i consider trivialities, are weak. it doesn't matter how tough you might be on ordinary occasions, or who or what you are. how intelligent, how good-looking, how rich, or even how successful you might be on your career path. people who break and crumble, who start wallowing in a cesspool of self-pity or misery over things like failed grades or failed relationships or a lack of direction in life... are pathetic. not because i feel i am any better, but because i have seen those who have taken greater blows, greater hurts and greater amounts of loss, and have dealt with them so admirably tt it shames those who cannot.

to everyone who has lost someone dear and who has honoured the memory of tt person by living and never forgetting, i salute you.