Saturday, August 12, 2006
stability.
one of the passing comments tt diana made last night while we were driving was of interest to me. i suppose because the night before, yw and kai were discussing the length of and the stability of their relationships. not in these exact words per se, but with enough referrals to suggest a long-time plan.
long-time plans make me apprehensive. i suppose because i've never had the experience of a long-time relationship before.
diana says tt he and i are v stable. this was in spite of me pointing out to her the fact tt he and i were only 4 months old (our established bond together, not our physical ages). and i suppose if you look at it tt way, we are quite stable.
we don't really argue tt much, although i worry tt as we become more familiar with each other tt might change. but right now it really is a give and take type situation. there were many things, big things, tt we had to accept about each other before we could venture into this together, particularly from him about me, and yet we managed to overcome tt hurdle. and yet there were still others, like my parents' paramount disapproval.
the biggest hurdles haven't come our way yet, i must admit. school hasn't started and our varying studying styles and the differences in our goals haven't yet manifested themselves. the realities of the working world with his heavy schedule and my erratic one haven't yet come into the picture, what with all the corresponding temptations tt will follow.
these things feel too far off to contemplate. so for the most part, apart from the usual hiccups and things like learning new things about each other, and getting accumstomed to the little things tt you never really knew or realised might have been tt important... things are stable.
it feels like we have been together for a very long time.
at this juncture i now understand why couples like to co-habit, even if they do not intend to marry at any time soon. there just doesn't feel like there is enough time in a day to spend with each other, regardless of the amount of time you do already spend with each other or the activities tt you do or do not do. going home to an empty room without his presence there, without him there to hold you, or to say 'goodnight' to you before you sleep... you actually feel the absence.
now i understand why they call them 'other halves'. they really do become a part of you.
i suppose tt is why i find it mildly amusing everytime, tt now every 2nd question tt everyone i meet asks me, isan almost-expectant: "where is he?"
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long-time plans make me apprehensive. i suppose because i've never had the experience of a long-time relationship before.
diana says tt he and i are v stable. this was in spite of me pointing out to her the fact tt he and i were only 4 months old (our established bond together, not our physical ages). and i suppose if you look at it tt way, we are quite stable.
we don't really argue tt much, although i worry tt as we become more familiar with each other tt might change. but right now it really is a give and take type situation. there were many things, big things, tt we had to accept about each other before we could venture into this together, particularly from him about me, and yet we managed to overcome tt hurdle. and yet there were still others, like my parents' paramount disapproval.
the biggest hurdles haven't come our way yet, i must admit. school hasn't started and our varying studying styles and the differences in our goals haven't yet manifested themselves. the realities of the working world with his heavy schedule and my erratic one haven't yet come into the picture, what with all the corresponding temptations tt will follow.
these things feel too far off to contemplate. so for the most part, apart from the usual hiccups and things like learning new things about each other, and getting accumstomed to the little things tt you never really knew or realised might have been tt important... things are stable.
it feels like we have been together for a very long time.
at this juncture i now understand why couples like to co-habit, even if they do not intend to marry at any time soon. there just doesn't feel like there is enough time in a day to spend with each other, regardless of the amount of time you do already spend with each other or the activities tt you do or do not do. going home to an empty room without his presence there, without him there to hold you, or to say 'goodnight' to you before you sleep... you actually feel the absence.
now i understand why they call them 'other halves'. they really do become a part of you.
i suppose tt is why i find it mildly amusing everytime, tt now every 2nd question tt everyone i meet asks me, isan almost-expectant: "where is he?"
# posted by Kitana @ 8/12/2006 12:04:00 PM 
