Sunday, April 24, 2005
burn-out
i didn't realise how tired i was of studying until today. when i went to yih to study, and just couldn't stay awake. i couldn't read my notes, couldn't highlight in a straight line, and my writing was like spiders' legs all over my notes.
i took a half hour nap to rejuvenate. it didn't work. my eyes kept closing.
i took another half hour nap in the hopes tt it would clear my mind. it didn't work.
by 3pm i'd given up and went back to hall. decided to take a solid 2 hour nap, and then continue my work.
i slept till 7pm.
as of now i have done *nothing*.
KNN i'm dead.
don't know how i managed to get to this. only 2 papers; 1 down 1 more to go. i *cannot* afford to let myself tire out now.
don't know how people like yunshan and cheeling just keep pushing themselves, pushing on. it's so much more tiring for them, but they do it with resolve.
i can't even keep awake.
i'm lucky in that i never allow studies or stress to get me down because i don't think books and paper qualifications are worth the mental and emotional toil they take on you. no one's ever going to care how upset you are studying coz everyone's equally stressed, equally tired.
but i would *at least* like to be able to know that i am trying as hard and i can now, pushing myself to my limits. while i still have the chance to change my fate.
why is it that my body doesn't listen to me?
You're a Ravenpuff!: You are a very analytical and
ingenius person, someone that likes to invent
new things. The way you look at life is with
wonder, and sometimes you're even a little
naive. But people love you for that trait and
they feel the need to protect you from the
harsh facts of life so that you can retain your
innocence. You are very capable person and when
there is trouble people turn to you because
you're able to stay calm and collected. You
like balance in your life and you try not to
make many waves. Even still, if there is
something that you believe strongly in, you
will commit yourself totally to that cause.
Your weakness is that sometimes you can be
indecisive and perfectionist, especially about
little details and you drive people crazy
sometimes with these traits. With the
innocence of a Hufflepuff and the calm of a
Ravenclaw you will be loved in life!
Which Mix of the Hogwarts Houses are You?
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i took a half hour nap to rejuvenate. it didn't work. my eyes kept closing.
i took another half hour nap in the hopes tt it would clear my mind. it didn't work.
by 3pm i'd given up and went back to hall. decided to take a solid 2 hour nap, and then continue my work.
i slept till 7pm.
as of now i have done *nothing*.
KNN i'm dead.
don't know how i managed to get to this. only 2 papers; 1 down 1 more to go. i *cannot* afford to let myself tire out now.
don't know how people like yunshan and cheeling just keep pushing themselves, pushing on. it's so much more tiring for them, but they do it with resolve.
i can't even keep awake.
i'm lucky in that i never allow studies or stress to get me down because i don't think books and paper qualifications are worth the mental and emotional toil they take on you. no one's ever going to care how upset you are studying coz everyone's equally stressed, equally tired.
but i would *at least* like to be able to know that i am trying as hard and i can now, pushing myself to my limits. while i still have the chance to change my fate.
why is it that my body doesn't listen to me?
You're a Ravenpuff!: You are a very analytical and
ingenius person, someone that likes to invent
new things. The way you look at life is with
wonder, and sometimes you're even a little
naive. But people love you for that trait and
they feel the need to protect you from the
harsh facts of life so that you can retain your
innocence. You are very capable person and when
there is trouble people turn to you because
you're able to stay calm and collected. You
like balance in your life and you try not to
make many waves. Even still, if there is
something that you believe strongly in, you
will commit yourself totally to that cause.
Your weakness is that sometimes you can be
indecisive and perfectionist, especially about
little details and you drive people crazy
sometimes with these traits. With the
innocence of a Hufflepuff and the calm of a
Ravenclaw you will be loved in life!
Which Mix of the Hogwarts Houses are You?
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# posted by Kitana @ 4/24/2005 09:39:00 PM 
