absolutum dominium

i play a dangerous game. and i think i may get burnt. a phone call after 2 weeks and my eyes light up when i pick it up. and it's not who you think it is. and it worries me. i cannot get emotionally involved. i swore to myself tt i wouldn't, but this time it seems tt i have not managed to be as stoic as i wished i could have been.

people come and people go. i am detached and distant and i have followed the offspring's advice and kept them separated. but i know tt i can't do it all the time. i wonder if i will see you soon, maybe before whistler. maybe before my last paper. maybe before i leave for ny. but i cannot dream and i cannot hope and i cannot allow myself to weaken.

back to my paper. back to reality. stop me from drowning.

NAKED AS WE CAME
- by Iron and Wine

She says "wake up, it's no use pretending"
I'll keep stealing, breathing her.
Birds are leaving over autumn's ending
One of us will die inside these arms
Eyes wide open, naked as we came
One will spread our ashes 'round the yard

She says "If I leave before you, darling
Don't you waste me in the ground"
I lay smiling like our sleeping children
One of us will die inside these arms
Eyes wide open, naked as we came
One will spread our ashes round the yard