absolutum dominium

you asked me if there were any movies tt i wanted to watch. and i said "sin city", which comes out july 14th. but i also added tt the movie was going to be damn violent...

and then you dead-panned: "you're talking to someone who sees dead bodies everyday."

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training today was fun.

hmm. actually yesterday was pretty fun too. met jane and francis at cfc. and i have discovered the stepper! this cardio machine tt is damn slack, damn low-impact (as compared to the bane of my life running), and according to the calorie counter still allows me to burn up to 1000 calories in an hour! power!

but then after tt i nearly fainted from hunger while waiting for sk at somerset mrt. and my entire right side - from my shoulder all the way to my waist - cramped up. now THAT fucking hurt. i was practically tearing while trying to un-cramp myself without making it obvious to everyone around tt i was trying to stretch my muscles.

we had pastamania for dinner. i don't know why whenever i go to pastamania with him, the pasta just sucks. no matter what i order. basket. but we walked around and i converted another person to tcc! wahahaha. their warm lava chocolate cake knows no detractors. heh. but the sugar rush proved too much for him to handle. that was highly amusing to me.

anyway back to today. morning wasn't as fun coz dad was nagging me again, and i was in a damn dulan mood, so we ended up having a mini-yelling match. and my mom sided him first, then me. come to think of it tt was kinda funny, in retrospect. but i am pretty sick of his "you're not responsible enough" lecture. blah blah blah. for god's fucking sake i'm still only 21 and still in uni. i think i'm already more responsible than half the fucking people my age, so cut me some fucking slack some fucking day can?

grr.

but training was fun. today morale was really good. we did an endurance set to the race site, and 2 race sets. and i thought we did pretty well. the water felt lighter today, and although it was a bit choppy, i thought the water conditions were still extraordinarily good. and everyone's pushing themselves. i'm so proud of lydia, and yirang, and wendy and ah ping our pacers, and geok who was rowing her guts out even though she sounded damn sick, and serene and cheeling and angie who were driving the boat and... well... i think tt makes everyone. :)

but i loved today. and david even let us all go down for a swim. and it was hilarious coz the moment captain mona, vice-cap vic and coach david went down, we were like "everyone last charge back to the pontoon!!!" and we actually tried to row away.

and half of each boat actually went down and we were encountering various states of unglam trying to scramble back into the boat. and i was laughing so hard as my butt was dangling out of the boat and poor lydia looked like she was going to die from trying to pull my butt back into the boat. thanks girl. :)

the run was... ugh. but i feel like this time i can go marginally faster than i used to. but thanks to ah ping and yunshan and cheeling who were really really just encouraging me even though my legs were aching like fuck again, and vic was very inspiring. and even though i feel really bad tt my teammates keep having to come back for me, it touches my heart tt they do. it's really amazing to see all these girls who are damn tired themselves come all the way out for you. i swear.

i have asked myself before why i came back, esp when it comes to running and i dread running like hell. but there have never been any regrets. coz everytime i see people press down tt much more to make the boat lighter for me, everytime i see people like cindy, mona, yirang, serene etc, run back out just for me and keep encouraging me back to sdba, whenever i can't breathe and yunshan or angie set down a bottle of water in front of me and ask me if i'm okay, everytime someone like geok or ah ping pats me on the back after a set, everytime something like this happens during training, i know with all my heart tt i've done the right thing.

i've always said tt i love my girls, and no matter how hard things get sometimes, no matter how tiring training gets, no matter how painful running is, no matter how low morale gets sometimes when the water gets heavy... i've never once doubted how much i love them.

now. if only the damn accelerade won't keep making me feel like throwing up. i have a permanent grimace on my face after training coz i'm trying to keep the liquid down. ugh.

and talk about perfect timing. just as i was sitting on the ledge next to mona watching idiots row boat, you call. and mona starts being totally irritating, which is highly embarassing. grr.

and because of the damn road closure, i got squashed in a bus 67 with all the people going to little india.

dinner was late. and yucky. and i had to wait for my mom till 8.30pm. talk about gastritis by then. but then the highlight of the night: you called from some ktv pub (?!). and i find it amazing how someone who might be the bane of so many other people, who can and does scare the hell out of certain people at certain times, is suddenly reduced to talking to me at a rate of 100 words per minute. i think tt's cute.